Injecting Meth, Sex, and Obsession: How I Lost—and Rebuilt—My Life

 I Was Addicted

For five years, I smoked crack and used heroin while holding a good job in finance in London. On paper, everything looked fine—but my life revolved around drugs.


The Rush That Hooked Me

I was introduced to crystal meth by a prostitute and her ladyboy friend. Injecting it brought a rush unlike anything I had felt with crack. Unlike crack, that feeling didn’t fade—it stayed, driving an obsession I couldn’t shake.


The Price of Free Drugs

Meth is cheaper than crack, but the social side was tricky. Many dealers were gay men, and because I was a good-looking straight man, they would sometimes give me free drugs—but often they wanted to perform oral sex on me in return. Occasionally, I allowed it.


When Obsession Takes Over

Meth, crack, and sex became the center of my life. Not always together, but always present. The obsession destroyed relationships, stability, and nearly everything I had built.


Naivety and Consequences

I grew up without exposure to these drugs, so I was naive about the consequences. I thought I could control it. I couldn’t.


Rebuilding

Now, I’m sober. Rebuilding isn’t fast or easy, but every day I’m reclaiming the life I risked losing.


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